Your journey has molded you for the greater good, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And NOW is absolutely perfect.
Losing my ability to play softball was one of the toughest things I have ever gone through. It feels like a part of who you are just vanished and worse than any romantic relationship breakup. This game gets inside of you and consumes you. I spent so many years questioning, angry and distancing myself from the game to avoid feeling all those emotions again. It took a long time to accept that although softball longevity was not in my path, I could impact the lives of others by sharing my experiences and knowledge. "If only I could go back" became "How do I find a way to share this with others." And here we are....The universe knows better than we do. Trust and keep putting in the work. Everything happens when it is supposed to - even if it looks nothing like you thought it would.